But most days I feel this is all a big dream, I can never trust myself. Because in dreams there is no such thing as love, there is no such thing as purpose or reason and even God is questionable. In dreams my life doesn't matter and I care about nothing because nothing matters except to wake up from the dream.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Been contemplateing lately, mind wondering over so many thing. My friend keeps telling me if I don't quit thinking I'm going to have a mental crash. I think he may be right but for some reason I can't seem to stop. I'm so tired, and I've been sick for the last 2 days and I don't even want to think about working for this school anymore. I need to do something before I leave or maybe just leave now. I know, though they may dispute it, that I have every right to cancel my contract, they would owe me 12000 yuan and a plane ticket home, after the four new teachers come. I'd love to get out of this place. A friend sent me this link last night, it's so true and I feel the message of it pulling at my heart, esspecially seeing the skyline of a Chinese city. I know some people in this town I'd love to partner with.
Friday, March 23, 2012
So I went and did some much needed and wanted shopping, got my new favorite best ever pair of jeans an awesome shirt (some other stuff) and tadahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! A Ukulele I've only wanted one for like forever! And now I finally got it! I love it and I can't seem to stop picking the little thing up. It's so little and happy and cute. Love the heart cut out and the happy plucky beachy mussic. Some time when I get better I'll have to make a video and post it :) Well I have classes bright and early tomorrow so I must sleep now. I'll write more soon, maybe Sunday. I'm suppose to get my hair cut another exciting event not to mention moveing in like a week. I'll be living with 4 Chinese people and I'm supper excited!
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Also I can't seem to stop listening to Chinese Pop it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside ;)